please don't go CrAzY if i tell you the t r u t h

for all of this... im better off without you

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 22:55:48 GMT

im in a better mood today. this morning wasnt all that great but the day got better. im hoping i stay in a good mood lol i really do. i totally kicked ass on that science quiz we had today, i hope :) ummm lets see wat else. ms. wichelman had her daughter at school today, she was so cute. and there was a nude scene during romeo and juliet, and ms. wichelman had to like cover the girls eyes it was funny lol. then i came home and went to get my hair cut. i havent had it cut since june. NO MORE SPLIT ENDS! YEAH! then i came home and got comfy, did a lil homework, and now im here. talking to KD about llamas. i was s'posed to go to her house today, but she's sick :-/. k well im out PEACE

i've been burning bridges, these past three years

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 00:32:01 GMT

BOLD THE ONES THAT APPLY

01. I have a cell phone
02. I'm obsessed with new things.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love my gauged ears.
06. I love wearing a lot of black eyeliner
07. I love Daquiris.
08. I love the weekends.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags (Coach, Burberry, Louis Vuitton)
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
17. I like the Backsreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I am a person.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizzare.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen "She's All That" at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. Winter is my least favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I am the hottest guy
40. I have a lot of drama
41. No one knows my full story of my life.
42. I love my hair.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach!!!
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.
48. I can't wait till Next year already.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have had a broken bone.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a generally happy person.
59. I love to dance.
60. I love to sing.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer
65. I hate when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love Play-Doh.
69. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I like high school.
72. I have a talent of sweet talking my way out of things.
73. I don't drink enough to get drunk.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I love the Olsen twins.
79. I'm gonna try out for the softball team.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Bam Margera is AWESOME!!!!!!
84. I love the smell of fresh laundry.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I hate the feeling of failure.
90. I am a virgin.
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. Above all, I despise dishonesty.
95. I can stay on the computer forever
96. I loVe music.
97. I wish I was more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.

this wasnt just another night alone

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 21:05:13 GMT

havent done shit today. had to go to both church services and sunday school which sucked but watever. i've been home doing this and that. i cant concentrate on anything for too long, i start thinking and i cant stop. i seriously need to go clean my room now though so i might update later

you might think i'm happy but im not gonna be okay

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 04:34:18 GMT

i got in my mood again :-/. it happened when i was over jamie's. and it sucks and i hate it and i wish i could make it go away. i feel really bad because you dont wanna be around me when im in my mood. ugh watever im gonna go try to fall asleep...

fill out puhleasee

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 19:27:17 GMT

FILL IT OUT BIOTCHES. :)

hi i'm _____.
i _____ katy.
katy is _____.
katy thinks a lot about _____.
when i think of katy i think of _____.
i want katy to _____.
if i were alone in a room with katy i would _____.
i think katy should _____.
katy needs _____.
i want to _____ katy.
if i could describe katy in a word, it would be _____.
katy will never _____.
katy can _____ my _____.
i hope katy never _____.
katy hopes i _____.
katy is my _____.
i _____ katy because _____.

way too long you've fucked with my mind, i've sang this song way too many times

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 18:45:41 GMT

im doing better, i really am. i layed in bed for a couple hours last night and realized i need to suck it up and pull myself together. so anyway, here's my day so far...

had to wake up around 8 for a meeting. we were bringing in a new girl, and i was performing the initiation process.. and i totally kicked ass. rehearsal didnt go all that well last night, but i didnt mess up at all this morning. im really happy about that, and glad that i wont ever hafta do that again lol.

then we're on the way home, and my mom wants me to take my lil bro roller skating at Scooters today :( who the heck spend there saturday afternoon rollerblading with their bro? seriously. i havent even rollerbladed in like 82957328942 years. i'll end up falling on my ass a million times. not to mention there's gonna be a bunch of little kids around and i hate a lotta noise to tell u the truth. im kinda hoping to get out of that.

k well im out. gonna go clean my room and stuff.

PS- not really sure wat my mood means, but that lil fox is just so damn cute

i wonder will this ever end

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 03:32:08 GMT

i cant deal with this anymore. i just cant. i need to get outta this town. no, outta this fucking state altogether. im never in a good mood. im constantly crying. and i dont effin no why. i know i say this every entry, but its the truth.

i tried to fall asleep, but i couldnt. i guess im just gonna go lay down anyway, eventually, or hopefully, i'll fall asleep.

breakin breakin she's breakin down

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 00:58:26 GMT

heyy. im still in *THAT* mood. very bad day today. jamie's sick :-/ . so didnt get to see him today. then i got a fucking 58 on my science test which is, ya know, wonderful considering before the test i had an 81 average or something. he says there will be a curve and thats not my final grade but who knows. knowing me i'll end up getting a worse grade. then my frickin french class can never shut up so she never finished going over the stuff on the quiz and i didnt get to study all that much so i got a 65 on the quiz today. a lot of people did bad but its still a bummer.

kristen's sharing my mood with me <33 then we were sending these cool smilies to eachother and making eachother feel better! hehe i heart herrrr. she's also gonna help me study for the science midterm since we'll be taking the same one. so thats good.

i forced myself to finish my homework as soon as i got home (specially since i had science) so all i had to do was study which went well, wasnt all that hard. then i had to memorize shtuff for saturday morning. still gotta do more of that but i also have tomorrow to do that.

alright, well its the OC time so i gotta goooo!

so many questions asked, but no ones answering

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 00:57:28 GMT

i swear i think im frickin bipolar or something. one minute i can be in a great mood and laughing, and the next, im crying over something stupid or for no reason at all. ugh its so annoying. im not handling my emotions very well right now. i've never been like this before and i dont know how to deal with it. watever. im out. PEACE

<3

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 01:03:27 GMT

heyyy. went back to school today. eh, watever lol. it wasnt all that bad. when i came home, i didnt do much. i started on my homework, then i started cleaning my room which is turning into this big thing lol. so i should probably get that finished or else i wont be able to sleep tonight. haha. i also gotta finish homework.

oOo, good news. i got this firefox thing, its like internet explorer but it actually works on my puter lol so now i am FREE of pop ups! scorreeee.

aww i hope my davie feels better <33

okay, im out!

so lie to me and try to say you never will

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 23:49:25 GMT

didnt do much today... didnt go to chuch because sarah was here. then we went to target and the mall for a few hours.. then we came home lol. dunno why im updating, but im out. PEACE

i'm slipping off the edge.. im hanging by a thread

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 18:49:23 GMT

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)

grr, so yesterday: we left for ocean city around 12 or 1 i guess and kel drove :( it was scary. so i turned on my music and tuned everyone out lol. we got there and we all took a nap lol basically. then me n kel woke up and were running around singing mest songs lol, preferbly (sp?) cadallac. umm then we headed down to the boardwalk around 6ish and went to see the main stage singers or something like that. we saw them last year, they were cute. there was this one gay guy and omg he was so cute lol he was all puttin everything into the dancing haha it was funny. then we got pizza and brought it back to the apartment. then we headed down to the rides and rode on the ferris wheel lol. then we went and saw meet the fockers. but eww the moorlyn theater was so frickin ghetto lol first we went there earlier to buy our tickets and the guy at the counter had his head fones on and had his head down lol. and we just kinda stood there and the other guys at the food stand or w.e were just kinda laughing. so im like "should we wake him up?" and his head kinda jerked up lol. then when we came back, there was only one guy there who took our tickets, then ran over to the food stand and worked there too lol. and the theater room was huge with stadium seating, but it smelled really bad and it was sticky and ugh. we got out around 12:05 or something like that so we didnt really feel the need to stay and watch the fireworks. then we went home and i just went to bed lol though it took me forever to fall asleep.

so yeah i decided to make the best of it and not be a grouch. it wasnt ALL that bad, though we didnt do a whole lot that was part of the First Night thing, but i just woulda rather been doing something else thats all lol.

so right now im home alone because the rest of the fam is still in ocean city, i just decided to come back because kel had to come back for work anyway, and i have homework that i need to do. i dont want tmrw to be the last day of break :( when we go back we hafta start worrying about MIDTERMS. ick.

right now im just gonna.. idk. leave. lol

nothing matters when your broken

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 20:01:58 GMT

yesterday was funnnn. i heart my beth. we watched movies and talked and she broke jesse :( lol. and we made a mini movie it was cool. ahh theres nothing like 4 or less hours of sleep lol

but ugh this is so depressing. i REALLY dont wanna go to this stupid thing tomorrow. this new years is gonna suck. everybody's talkin about where there going.. not ONE person hasta do something they dont wanna do. omg i hate this lol this is just makin me more angry.

this could be my chance to break out

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 21:19:05 GMT

hehe i heart my KD.. funny convo... had to post. i kinda re-arranged it though so u could follow wats goin on

x Give iT aWaY (4:09:47 PM): oh wat a loooser
the great kep (4:09:58 PM): who me?
x Give iT aWaY (4:10:04 PM): no him
x Give iT aWaY (4:10:14 PM): yeah kt your MY loser.

x Give iT aWaY (4:09:56 PM): my jaw is cracking
x Give iT aWaY (4:10:00 PM): and its annoying me
the great kep (4:10:12 PM): lol why
x Give iT aWaY (4:10:22 PM): do i look like a doctor to you?

hehe :) . beth is sleeping over tonight. im so excited. can't wait. oh yeahhh. later?

better mood now.

it seems like everyday i make mistakes... i just cant get it right

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 18:56:44 GMT

ugh this totally sucks. yesterday me n kristen went to atlantic city and then to see phantom of the opera and that was fun and all... then kel had to ruin it for me

my rents are going to this party at the deauville new years eve. so my pop pop went out and bought me and kel and dan tickets to the First Night at ocean city. we went last year and it totally sucked. its for little kids and we didnt enjoy it. we ended up going to see a movie instead. and i TOLD my mom this. idk why she let him get us tickets. it probably wasnt her fault, he probably didnt tell her. he should have ASKED us if we wanted to go. i woulda been honest and said no.

so now i cant go to jamie's show. i can't go to kd's party. this SUCKS. ugh. i was finally in a good mood yesterday and hjadljdhs. jamie called me last night and the reason we didnt talk for very long is probably because i was in a bad mood and i feel bad. i really miss him. i havent seen him since last thursday and we dont get to talk a whole lot. he has practice today and tmrw at 5, so we probably cant hang out or anything til after new years.

i miss my beth too :( we havent hung out in forever so im hoping she can sleep over tonight. she's always my bestest medicine :).

when others doubt, you still believe

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 15:55:10 GMT

argh someone get me outta this mood im in. idk wat it is but its driving me nuts. nothing seems to work. but im hanging out with kristen today so yaya that'll get me in a good mood. i still need to hang out with beth sometime this week and i miss jamie so we hafta hang out too. and there's kd too lol well all that will make me feel better.

right now i'm going too... idk go do something.

if just for one day i wish i could disappear

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 22:25:47 GMT

fidsjf;sdifj im so tired. nothing happened today. went to the mall with kel. came home. been here since. now im going to go take a nap or sleep or something.

cowardly i'll face this all alone

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 00:43:51 GMT

i've been so weird lately. all i wanna do is sleep. and i've slept so much these past couple days. im just to tired all the time and im not really talking a whole lot and ugh wat the heck is wrong with me?

my aunt donna & uncle david are staying the night, so they're taking my parents room and my parents are taking my room.. even though kel's bed is bigger, mine is supposedly more comfortable. so im gonna hafta sleep on the upstairs or basement couch which i really don't wanna do cuz i wont be able to fall asleep. but oh well.

ack im just so blah right now...

merry christmas

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 21:39:23 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

cause time changes and so do the seasons

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 20:08:35 GMT

yooo its christmas eve :) i really should be wrapping presents but im so frickin cold and yeah i've been wrapping gifts all morning and my mom keeps giving me more to wrap.

yesterday was fun, we did nothing in like any of my classes for the most part lol. it was a half day so jamie came over. then i slept for like 12 hours lol. this morning me kel and mom went to the mall.. i got somethin for kris cuz it was just so her haha and then i got somethin else for kel.

grr this christmas is so fucked up lol. my grandma who's really my PopPop's second wive needs to spend all day tmrw with her family but lauren and john and sarah are coming to our house for dinner. so my mom has to cook for tmrw and the day after xmas for grandma gloria and poppop. watever lol.

okay well i've gotta go do the 5849684654685456 things i gotta do lol. later

lalala

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 20:19:00 GMT

yay only half a day of school left. im so eexcited. and i just got back from my ortho appointment, im getting my braces off on january 24. yaya

today was okay. nothing special really lol. umm lets see. we had a french party. which was basically just eating and watchin that frickin movie in french. it sucks cuz im a really slow reader so i kept missing the end of their sentences lol. NOTHING INTERESTING HAPPENED TODAY. god. lol okay well im done rambling on about nothing...

frickin amazing

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 01:52:03 GMT

i know its like tuesday but here's the concert shiz:

first was vanessa carlton. she was amazing, i wish i could play piano like that lol.
then wasss gavin degraw i think. god he's sexy lol i would rape him. yeah he played a little piano too and guitar and yeah.
then was benji and joel. they were awesome. to tell u the truth, im not into good charlotte anymore, but with just joel singing and benji on guitar it was pretty cool
then simple plan. frickin amazing. idk wat else to say haha but they were awesome
kelly clarkson was last, man shes turning punk on us lol. at least the way she dresses. but watever she's cool. she was really good

then we crashed at KD's and haha it was funny me n kd slept on an air mattress. and i was awake in the morning, but i wouldnt actually get up lol so kd goes and unplug or w.e the bed and all the air lets out in like 3 seconds it scared the shit outta me but at least it got me up haha. it was so frickin cold monday. yeah thats pretty much it.

i didnt get to study for science as much as i wanted to last night so i set my alarm for 4:30. i figured i'd get up then and take a shower, then have plenty of time to study. well, i wake up then, but of course i dont get up. i didnt end up getting up until 5:45 so i just had time for my shower. but i think i did okay on the test, i knew most of it. but oh my goodness in health, we had a quiz, but he didnt remind us yesterday, and yeah right like i'd remember him telling us last friday. he even commented after school how i did bad :( if he could be a little more frickin creative then just an empty vocab sheet for a quiz maybe i'd have done better. oh frickin well.

then i came home, straightened kristens hair. took a shower, straightened my hair. went to danny's concert. now im here. i need to go read romeo and juliet, even though i won't understand any of it.

okay im done :)

interesting day

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 23:09:15 GMT

today was interesting. we go to deliver the gifts to the ronald mcdonald house and visit the family, but the lady had no idea wat we were talking about. and aparently, dorothy gave me a family that wasn't even staying there anymore, so they had no clue who mariella was, and i didnt have a last name for her. but yeah they werent there and neither was dorothy or teddy to explain wat happened. supposedly, they are giving the gifts to them wednesday. so yeah, we didnt get to meet our family, and dorothy is going to call whenever she gets back i guess.

then we came home and mom to me and kelli to the mall. im almost done shopping its crazy. i just need to get john something and im done. i still need to wrap all the gifts, plus a bunch of gifts my mom is paying me to wrap lol that'll be my morning/afternoon tomorrow before winter wonder jam 2! wat wat haha. its gonna be amazing. but im still going to school in the morning, that'll be fun cuz im stayin over kd's afterwards and u know we wont get any sleep lol.

so yeah busy busy. right now im going to go get in the shower and @ 7 im going to babysit for my next door neighbors.

TGIF

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 04:15:41 GMT

yayuh friday night! school week is over, finally. i thought it'd never end lol. yesterday i stayed after for extra help in science and i have a realllyyy good feeling i'm going to get a good grade on the test on tuesday :). and today, uhh nothing special i don't think. interesting day in intro haha. so yeah jamie just left like 15 minutes ago. he told me i should go to sleep, but i'm not all that tired to tell u the truth lol. so yeah he was over and we watched ace ventura, along with the new episode of degrassi which im sure he loved haha. anyways, im out, maybe i'll try and go get some sleep.

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 23:26:01 GMT

today was okay i guess. some people REALLY get on my nerves and need to get a life though lol.

oh and if you here anything about my KD, its not true, so get over it. thats all im sayin about it.

hmm well i'll just go through my day-
keyboarding- didn't do anything, literally lol i was done all my tables so i just sat there and helped courtney with her tables
piano lab- got an 86 on my test :/ i coulda done better but oh well
health- haha funny discussion on the male/female reproductive system
science- boring as usual.. nothing special
algebra- took a mad hard quiz, well at least i thought it was hard lol
french- umm we did stuff. boring but i love that class
lunch- uhh idk i ate lol
english- went to the library to do research on shakespeare. dont really wanna go into wat else happened though
intro- we had the assembly that guy was great haha i liked it. though some of the freshmen are assholes and disrespecting the guy like they always do

then i came home lol. dont really know wat i've been doing.. helped out handing out the longerberger basket to the people around my court. did some homework. yeahhh haha okay im out